Day two of Long weekend: Went for a wonderful lunch at mystics with Ellen and Jess. Was superb catching up with my peeps. Decided to go for a run and take a new route. Too bad it was already 7 o'clock and this route didn't have any street lights. WOW! that was scary. I pretty much sprinted home and can therefore not stand up for more than 10 seconds without collapsing.
The more I think about my future the more I start stressing about it. I've even resorted to putting myself under self hypnosis to facilitate relaxation. Its a vicious cycle of worry. I worry about myself stressing so much and so I avoid thinking about next year. Then i start getting nervous because I'm not making plans for my studies. AAH! I'm running in a circle that I can't escape from.
I don't even know if I want to do a BA in Fine Art. I love art, it defines me, but do i want to go study it? I do not want to struggle making a living one day. And frankly I wonder if this degree is challenging enough for me. Not that i'm saying that it isn't a demanding degree, i know it is... it's just.
"just" is where it always ends and we are back at the same place where we started.
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